Losses and Gains

Last week, we received news that we had lost our baby boy referral. The dark skinned, wide-eyed little boy we saw grow up in pictures from 3 weeks old to 5 ½ months old would no longer be headed to the Myers home, but instead was returned to his birth mother in her tiny village in Southern Ethiopia. We sat shocked as the news was relayed to us. Then we cried. A lot. It’s difficult to articulate all the emotions that have swirled about through this whole process. And honestly we’re just not even sure how to grieve the loss of someone who was never really ours to begin with.


We’re very grateful for God’s promises given to us just a few weeks before all this happened from Matthew 10:29-31. This little sparrow may have fallen from our nest, but we know that ultimately it did so according to God’s good plan for our lives and his. And so we grieve, because it hurts. But we do so with hope because we know that a kind and loving God is orchestrating all of these events according to His great wisdom.


We may not ever see Little Buddy here on earth; but our prayer is that one day we will rejoice around the throne of God with him by our side. It seems hopeless from a human standpoint to think of how this little one will ever receive the Good News now facing a life growing up in a 99% Muslim village. But nothing is impossible for God. His arm is not to short to save. He CAN make Himself known to this child and his family. Our prayers are powerful and effective. If anything at all, this child has gained life-time intercessors in Justin and I, and no doubt many others.

On Monday we were presented with a new referral of a teeny tiny 3 week old boy. Of course one look at the little guy and we have fallen in love with him. Receiving his referral does not negate the sorrow we feel over loosing Little Buddy. Our hearts will never forget that little guy. But as we gaze into these new dark eyes we are reminded that God’s love is beyond searching out, and we can trust Him in the midst of all our questions to know He is building our family according to His great wisdom and plan. He alone is good.

““For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the LORD. “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” - Isaiah 55:8-9